Danielle Gray- Percoats

We don't come on here as the years have gone by......

A few days ago we celebrated your 33rd Birthday!  Samiyah always looks forward to celebrating your birthday!  As midnight was approaching, me , Mya, and Mama were in the garage signing and dancing to songs you liked! At midnight we had the lights on your picture and sung Happy BirthdaY. We woke up bright and early, Samiyah put on a Happy Birthday Mommy shirt with a picture of you two on it. We went to Walmart to get cake mix, candles, and balloons! Then to Party City to blow up these clear balloons with pink and blue confetti inside.  Samyah wanted a pink one for you! She wanted to be thee only one with the pink. When we got home she painted the balloon with hearts. Samiyah and Alonzo baked you a cake at Nikki's house. We then met at the cemetery for a balloon release. Mommy, Nikki,Justin,Samiyah, Justin Jr, Alonzo, Tyree,Robert, Tesha,Monique,Tayvon, ,Taliyah,Layloni,Telani were all in attendance! When we arrived I guess the security was supposed to lock up the gates but we made it in time and he gave us some time to celebrate you! Everyone signed their balloons , Justin ended up popping the balloon June signed. It looked cool cause the confetti flew out everywhere! once we released the balloons the balloon me and Ty signed looked like it got caught in the trees and popped! since someone stole your flower cup we have to put them in the hole of your headstone. Later that night me, Mom, and Justin took the limo out to Tommy T's of Pleasanton to see Deray Davis! The comedy show was soooo halarious and we all had a great time together. Talked the whole ride there and back! Nikki didn't make it cause she wasn't up to it. Happy we're all still able to get together and celebrate your birthday in memory of you! And til the day I die I will always celebrate your day ! 

P.S : Im wondering if DB had the baby. I just remembered Shawntā's due date was your birthday for their baby #2 Tai! I'll call them later to check! Lol  

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YA!!!! 
Xoxo Kiki  

I just want an internal happiness with everything. For myself, for Mama, and for Nikki who is having the hardest time with this. I want to be at peace with my situations and surroundings. I know what it takes to get there and I'm thankful to have been through the good, the bad, and the ugly. Im still working on growth and inner peace and I will eventually be complete and filled with just that.  I will let go and let GOD. And continue to live my life with purpose. I love you and miss you more than anything! It would bring Joy to my heart if I could just see you in my dreams tonight. Continue to smile down and watch over us. I pray that God will allow me to see you again and again. you are the best big sister in the world! 
Love Ya Sis! 
 kiki 4/17/15 4:18a.m.

Tonight I've been thinking about you more than ever! It really amazes me how much time has flied by and how much I've grown, how much Mya's grown and how much Nikki's grown. Looking down on us I know your very proud. I'm trying to make you proud and be a positive female role model in Mya's life. Cause she definitely needs one. Especially in all this wickedness and craziness in this generation.  I try not to worry about her much because that girl has your spirit! She is a beautiful, intelligent, a witty lil character that has a bright future ahead of her. It's weird because she speaks of you like she knows you. Like she's been here before. We make sure we tell her how her mommy was. She asks a gazillion questions about you all the time. Each year it gets tough. But I'm hanging in there. I  hold back my emotions cause I gotta stay strong for the family but when I'm alone I sit back and reflect on life. Wondering how things would be, could be if you were here. How everyone in the family would be. If I'd be a better person. Who knows. I know I shouldnt question these things but I do often. You don't really know what you have until it's gone and looking back I only wish for more conversations, more hugs, more I love you's, and spending that extra time that woulda made a difference To me. Cause all I have now is cherished memories that I would hold on to for a lifetime And pass on to my children. I'm just so thankful to have gotten this time on earth to experience Life and Love. I'm thankful to have had such an AMAZING, LOVING, HALARIOUS, BEAUTIFUL, INTELIGENT sister like you! I remember growing up how much I admired you and wanted to be like you!  I just thought you were the most beautifulest sweetest person in the world. Like you could do no wrong. But being a lil sister that's how it should be and you set that example for me and I thank you for that.  I'm 22 now almost finished with College and started up my business all because you and Nikki got that go getta mentality. You were so into fashion and I loved the hand me downs and wearing all your brand clothes. That made a big impact on me and my passion for making clothes now. Nikki stays busy with the boys, cooking, planning things, and constantly coming up with new ideas or business ventures. It amazes me how talented she is. She's SuperWoman! There ain't nothin in the World that she can't do.... Seriously. It's something holding her back from her full potential. And I just want her happy and successful.  It breaks my heart knowing that I'm now the age you were when you passed away. With so much to have had lived for. Mya always says how much she wants to get into the medical field to carry out your dream. Shes only 9! She also says a minister, dentists, or chief. I often worry about Mom Too. I know its tough trying to raise Mya as she grows older taking care of Granny and the Boys and still shes dealing with you being gone but she hides her emotions well. I don't want her to feel like she has to though. We all are dealing with it someway, somehow but we don't address it. I also wish you could have met the love of my life of 8 years Mr. Walter "Tyree" Murray. You would absolutely LOVE him! I tell him all sorts of stories about you and he wishes he could have met you as well. He's an Incredible human being with the biggest heart! He's helped me grow into this woman I am becoming today. He motivates me more than anybody I've ever met and he's so passionate about everything he does. He comes from such a humble, loving, respected family that has morals and values. He will definately be my husband and father of my children one day. We pray and pray that one day we will carry on our legacy. Since I have endometriosis . But there is nothing that my God can't do and I believe soon enough I will be able to experience motherhood.  Ty is there for MyMy and a positive male figure in her life as well as Justin. I thank God that she has her uncles to love her and teach her the right things from a males perspective. I find it so weird that we have all lost our siblings at young ages. Mom loosing uncle Leon her brother, DB/Cyn loosing Andre, Tina/Brandy/Hunnies/Boo loosing Robert. may you all Rest In Paradise

04/30/09. Today I heared a song by usher that made me think of when We rode out to San Fransisco one night. I remember it was me, you, Brandy, Adrienne, Justin, Tanc, Hervera and some other people. It was a nice night although it was kinda windy by the beach. There were bonfires and the ocean looked so peaceful. We were drinking and had alot of fun. The whole way in the car and back we were playing Usher's new cd. We were singing and talking. Justin and I got a phone call from mama telling us that baby Justin was sick...so the whole bunch, both cars of people rushed back home to check on him and cut the night short. We had a good time that night and I will never forget it.

Dear danielle , i love you. i hope you are enjoying kickin with god and that crazy son of his! tell granny helen i love her. didnt see you before you exited life but never forgot you and never will. i adored you when i was a kid! still do. love you

 

 

 

 

I LOVE YOU MONKEY. I KNOW THAT YOU WERE THERE RIGHT ALONG WITH US CELEBRATING YOUR LIFE TODAY. I HOPE YOU LIKED THE BALLOONS AND THE CAKE. LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER. SEE YOU LATER SIS.

I was thinking about you while making dinner. I love you so much and I cant wait to see you again. Thinking back to all of the things that we did, all the fun that we had. Tears are running down my face right now, thinking of all of the great times we had. Words cant even express this feeling in my heart that I get when I think about you and how much I truely miss you. Thank you for being a wonderful sister. Its so sad that I took advantage of the love that we had, never thinking that you would ever leave me. I wish I would have told you how much I loved you and appreciated all the things that you did, not only for me but for our family. I miss you so much and I pray that we will be together again. I pray that you are happy and that you are watching over us all and waiting patiently for us to be together again.

 

Love always and forever,

Your Big Sister,

Nichole

I was thinking about you last nite Monkey. It made me feel sad when I layed down and realized how much I have moved on in my life. I came to the reality that I love you and I miss you but that I had to let you go in order to function and live a normal life without being depressed or sad about loosing you. I never really thought of it like that until last nite. I was sad because I guess its just been so long since you have been gone and although I think of you often on a daily basis, I really just thought about how much Ive done, how much Ive grown, how big the kids have gotten, since you have been gone. It brings tears to my eyes right now to think of all the things that I wish I could have shared with you. I know that you always have a place in my heart and in my soul. I miss you so much and I look forward to the day that I see you again in paradise. I love you DayDay, we all miss you very much.

 

Cole